Post by Bedwyr on Dec 16, 2011 18:44:46 GMT -5
The day had gone… better. In a way, at least. It had started with few, curt words, misunderstandings, and an earnest fear of another Servant that he had not even sensed. But, even though he was exhausted, it had turned out better. His mind barely staticced under the light of the sun. Occasional pauses, a man had walked by dressed in leathers, and he felt the steel that hid his heart pull away for a second, before firmly rooting himself. A beast had screamed and slammed into another, and seemed to replace the fallen horses and men on a battlefield.
But she… she was still there, his mind was clear. He said an evening prayer in thankfulness when they had returned home with the setting sun. Amaranta was actually resting in a bed for once, unlike the last two nights, at the end of a long hallway, hardwood creaking under each step as he had followed her.
He allowed himself to dismiss the steel that surrounded him, and pull his surcoat around himself after she laid down, him against the door. The window held an improvised chime from his two barrettes, and two ruby earrings, hanging pendulously from the latch. One could pick the lock, but the chime was hidden, a simple thing he had learned one night from Gawain, and would ring gently with its opening.
There was almost a feeling of nakedness without the earrings as always. He did not trust his gauntlets to remain in this world apart from him, but something with such a connection surely should.
His back to the lone door in the room… there had been a bit of objection from Amaranta about that, but he had pointed out the previous two nights… still there had been objections. But in the end, he won this one small thing~ He would have chuckled, had Amaranta not already been asleep. Or pretending to sleep. It was difficult to tell.
Spatharius gently leaned under the doorknob, close to his good hand. He was ready to deal with the dreams, and this time he would hold his own. Strangely though… he didn’t feel tired at all.
Immediately after closing his eyes, the dreams came. Memories that he feared. Memories that he loved. But… it was not as bad as last night. Perhaps his mood lent to it, but he simply relived them, they didn’t seem any different.
He laid his King, he laid her against the tree. Merlin was gone; the wound was mortal, but still he held some small hope. A tree far away from the blood, the remaining curses, the remaining corpses of the battlefield.
She had never smiled. Not once. No matter how close he had gotten to her, no matter how much he saw her, no matter what happened.
“Please endure here until I return. I shall certainly bring our troops here.”
Hope.
It shifted, and he was younger, bare a boy, and kneeling, his armour shining, a heavy surcout resting on his shoulders, modelled after his own king's coat, and his shorter locks hanging over empty air, swaying with his bent head, and the breaths of everyone in the room. He had just spent two days in the reflectory focusing on the past, the future, on his king. On his goal.
His face… the king’s face… it never smiled. Never flinched. He wanted to see the King’s true self, and dedicated himself there and then to it. For two days he had repeated the promise, and now he was before him.
Clarent, the shining sword of peace, radiant in the light, dipped through the air, and touched him on one shoulder. The king was radiant, unchanged. Immortal. Perfect, save the smile he wanted to see touch his lips. The smile that wasn't there yet, but it would be.
A throng of people stood silent, bowing their heads behind him. This was a start. The start of the rest of his life.
The sword raised, and touched his other shoulder, he could feel the weight of the blade, the weight of the kingdom, the weight of his orders.
Once more the sword raised, its great burden still weighing heavily on his shoulders.
And the blade thrust through his chest, through his back, from behind him. A wicked grin larger than would fit on her beautiful face as the blade pierced his right side, as he coughed out blood. Glowing eyes, filled with dispassionate hate.
“Ar… Ar-“ His eyes looked up at the boy-king pleadingly as he felt nothing but pain. Not betrayal, his life was already given. Just dull, throbbing pain.
It was dark in the chamber. Everyone was silent, shadowed… and that grin that haunted her face…The blade pulled out of his body, he felt flesh tear, felt the searing pain. Blood… he could feel it run down his back.
He stumbled to his feet, still pressing his weight against the door. Spatharius whipped from its sheath as if he was possessed.
Laughter. Laughter. Here. They were here. He was here. Now. Amaranta!
He spared a glance back, she was rising. She was still alive. Still alive. He took a deep breath in, and then rammed the door with his shoulder, the echo thrumming through his wound, causing more blood to spill out.
“Don’t…” He coughed as he heard her startle awake. He did not dare look away, not meet the same grin that had haunted her face. The shadow, his fear. He feared. For her. Not for himself, for her. “Don’t… open the door.” It slammed shut behind him, his foot kicking it back as he faced the cackling man. He was already injured. “No matter… no matter what.” What had he hit? Bedwyr could barely breathe already. Each breath was a gasp… his lung? Something. He had no time for that.
A gladius waited in his hand, Spatharius. The dim hall… there were no lights, all he could see was the shadow’s eyes. Waiting. And behind him the twisted bright cloud, but it emanated no light.
There were no lights. He had tried to press a switch with his shoulder, but it was gone. Disconnected. But the shadow now either had to retreat, or go through him. The cackling hissing madman. The bright eyes… the grin… he would… Bedwyr coughed again.
“The gauntlet is down.” He hadn’t even materialized his armour yet. There wasn't even a point. “Let’s finish it, wraith, I am tired of you haunting me!” A bit of bravado… it seemed to be his only weapon against the man. “There is no way you are-“ More coughing, “Getting through me!” He was up straight, ready, just dripping blood. Other than his coughs, he was the picture of a knight. That and the lack of armour… no perhaps he did not look the part. But he felt the part, for the first time this war.
His sword did not gleam, only waited. Spatharius waited. There were only two things.
There was nothing to ride. And there were no lights. The shadow’s element… even on his home grounds, he was in his enemy’s element. Most importantly...
There were no lights.